Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Three Down, One to Go!

Yup, tomorrow is my Friday! :) (Maybe that's why I am feeling better today? lol) It's going to be nice to get some stuff done, and I mean STUFF! I can go grocery shopping, *maybe* interview new docs (I'm teeter-tottering on this one) and... use the spa GC that DH got me for LAST Valentine's day!

The thing's about to expire (Saturday is the last day I can use it). Every time I would contemplate what I wanted to do with it exactly something would happen to prevent me from doing so. SOOOOOO... I'm going in late Friday morning to get a pedicure- with aromatherapy! (Lord knows I need it! lol) YEAH! So I'm going to be nice and tidy up my nails a bit and take the tiny bit of worn-off polish I have left so they have a fairly clean slate to start with. I'll spare you the gross photo of what they look like now. Normally I get a French pedi, but I think I am going to go hot pink this time, do something different and BOLD. :)

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Is it Tuesday already?

I guess it is. The weekend has gone by, all too quickly. OOPS! I meant to post more here as I have so much going on(!) but just don't know how to say it.

With the layoff coming my mind has been focused on finding a new job; my last dr visit focused me on finding a new doc, then the layoff fact hits me again and makes me think maybe I should wait on the doc. Although I have a few prospects (Thanks, DAM'ers.. you guys rock!), what if they don't take my insurance (whoever that will be through)? I get all attached to and fall in love with a doc (and based on what I have read about one of them that's what would happen) then have him (yes, him) turn out to not take my new insurance. *sigh* Guess I could always go out of network if I have to there.

I need to get my resume critiqued. Bad. My husband helped me out and he was wonderful, however, I am getting the same stuff as the last job search. The last one was performed when I had just started out at Auto Finance Company (not the real name), I was sooo burned out sooo fast. I couldn't find anything so I just stayed put (and good thing I did, as it turned out!). The only prospects who would contact me were the outside sales/financial services salesy-type jobs. Fast forward to today. I just last week made my resume public on Careerbuilder. If I was to say that I have received ten e-mails, about 8 of them would be... you guessed it. SALES! Financial services! The one thing I know I don't want to do. It just doesn't appeal to me, nor does it interest me. If I am going to jump through legal and licensing hoops, it will be for a teaching job; at least that will be rewarding (minus competitors out there wanting to cut my throat! no, thanks!)!

I spoke with my mom Friday afternoon; she's almost back to normal. She talked my ear off (YAY! she hadn't done this since the injury) like she always has and I learned she actually had the whole darn shoulder replaced. Dang. Will this lady ever catch a break?! At least I know she is on the mend, though and will be back to normal hopefully before we know it.

Sorry this is such a "downer" of an entry today; I have been kind of down today for most of the day. Then I looked at today's date and realized why: today is the anniversary of my first child growing his wings and flying off to Heaven. I miss the little turkey dearly. Still.  Then I was slapped in the face again on New Year's day, to boot. I think it's just hitting me even more b/c DH and I are unable to try right now b/c of our job situation.

If you made it this far, you're a champ!

Friday, February 20, 2009

Holy. Freaking. Cow.

For years I have contemplated teaching as a career. I would contemplate it, put it away (mostly at mom's nagging- yes, I bashfully admit, I let her talk me out of it a few times) then contemplate it again.

Fast forward to about two months ago, when we received our occasional course-information mailing from our local county college. They had a teaching program included in there. However, *blush* the mailing was apparently mistaken for clutter and thrown out with the other recyclables.

I made my resume public on Careerbuilder yesterday. Today I opened my e-mail and found lots of e-mails, not too shabby for the thing having been made public just a couple of business-hours ago. Insurance sales. (No thanks. I have actually been to several seminars about these gigs in the past. Quotas. One company actually said they would dock my base pay if I didn't make my monthly quota, which increased every month! I'd rather work as a CSR for an insurance company, assisting those who are already policyholders. Life insurance? bo-ring!) Outside sales/telemarketing. No thanks.

Another "opportunity" email caught my attention. I opened it (doesn't take long to do, may as well "hear" what they have to say...) and LOVED what I saw. The lady sitting in the desk next to mine asked if I was OK when she heard my jaw hit my desk. (I ended up forwarding her and another CW the e-mail later on) It was an opportunity for degreed folks to get a teaching certificate, training being held with a local school district. It's called the "Alternative Teacher Certification Program," for which they qualify you via your transcripts, resume and results on skills tests.

The (last available) info sesh is next Saturday, 2/28.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

More random thoughts

So obviously Keith and I have decided it is best to put our baby-making on hold for now. :( Once we realized the impact of our decision, however- we don't really want to put our lives on hold forever- I officially made my resume public on Careerbuilder (CB). I also created a profile on some professional website but I can't remember the name of it.. there is a link to it off of CB and it is like a professional version of Facebook.

Anyway, back on topic- after two miscarriages and neither of us getting any younger (DH is 16 years older than I am) we just don't want to wait anymore!! BOOOO! I was still in hopes that we could have one by the end of this year (that was my goal after the first m/c last February) but I'm not sure that will happen now. I mean, if we get new jobs soon enough we *might* get one, yes one shot next month, but that is it. Then it's off to... eh- next year.

Of course, this decision does give me more time to look for a new doc. I just hope that the new doc will be on my new insurance when I get a new job. I guess I like the word "new" tonight for some reason. LOL

To help keep me (somewhat) distracted I came across this neat web site, DFW Area Moms, which is loaded with alot of different topics and awesome ladies. I've only officially been a member for a couple of weeks now and already love it. Woohoo!

At least I had one good thing to talk about tonight, huh? :)

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Crazy thoughts and cats...

We had dinner with my in-laws today for my brother-in-law's birthday. He isn't telling how old he is. However, since three out of the four of us at the table work for the same company (only two of us, DH and myself, however, are affected by the layoff), work naturally was a prime topic, other than celebrations.

BIL mentioned that his company just had a hiring class, but who know by July 1- he may be able to give us the hook-up. While I'm not crazy on the idea of sales, it is the type of sales I'd want to do- inbound calls, customer service-type gigs, not the outside, door-to-door, gas-guzzling kind. It sounds actually to be quite fun- you never know til you try!

And now for some comic relief...

I was surfing around and came up on this crazy video of  cats... flushing the toilet. Now if we could only get them to use the darn thing beforehand... ;)

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Chicken dee China...

the Chinese Chicken, ya have a drumstick and your brain stops tickin.'

Keith and I were on our daily lunch walk today and that song came up somehow in our conversation. Trying to decipher the lyrics was impossible since it had been, oh about ten years or so since we heard the crazy song. Forget trying to figure out even where the name Barenaked Ladies came from, either.

I think I will stay away from that Chinese chicken drumstick, my brain might stop tickin'.

Wait... I think it already has. Hand over that drumstick. ;)

Monday, February 16, 2009

A Decision is Made...

... Keith and I did not apply for the collections jobs. We are right now going to try to find something different and closer to home. Hope we are able!

Sunday, February 15, 2009

And the trauma continues...

...for my mom. I called her last night to wish her a happy Valentine's Day and got news back that she broke her thumb. This was her left thumb, so she now has casts on both sides of her body!! #^@&@$%&@$#^@#$%&!

Now her left WRIST and right shoulder are both in casts, for the next five weeks. Yuck.

How she found out? She was at the doc's office for a follow-up visit. She complained that her thumb was STILL hurting her (it was at the time of the injury as well). Mind you they did take x-rays in the ER but found no break. Go figure! They found the break at the doc's office, though. Turns out mom was aggravating it (inadvertently) every time she moved it. 

Other than that, however, she is okay. At least I know she is in good hands with her friend taking care of her. (Friend is an RN/BSN.)

Friday, February 13, 2009

I. Totally. Stole. This.

I Stole This.

I stole this from Nat...

Go to and type in your answer to each question in the search box, then write in one definition it gives you.

1. Your Name: Kimberly
A sweet compassionate girl that finds the beauty in everything. She is always willing to give a helping hand. Everyone loves her as soon as they meet her. Tends to be very sexy and confident.
Going on a mission trip to Ukraine is such a Kimberly thing to do. 
LOL okay...

2. Your Age: 27
Marlboro Blend #27, Class A filter cigarettes.
An extremley trendy smoke, with a smooth,rich, mellow taste. They are roasted to bring out the flavor of the tobacco.
Lindsay Lohan has been known to only smoke 27's. 
Eww.. I actually loathe cigarettes. Tried one once but couldn't get it past my teeth. 

3. One of your friends: Amy
American/European traditional name derived from the Latin word am√Ęta, meaning "Beloved."

Famous people who have shared this name:

Amy Adams
Amy Carter
Amy Grant
Amy Irving
Amy Johnson
Amy Ray
Amy Tan
Amy Winehouse

Amy can also be a nickname of the word Amelia.
Man: Amy, you are my Beloved. 
Speaking of which I need to call Amy.. her jaw will be in her lap when she hears everything that's been going on with me! I'm a terrible friend.

4. Admirer: I don't know.
the foundation of a relationship
what are you lookin at? i don't know! what were you just talkin about? i don't know! 

5. Favorite color: Purple.
Extremely potent marijuana, specifically marijuana buds that have a purple hue to them. Also accompanied by a fragant, usually fruity smell and mad perma-grin.
"Yo, you gotta come over and smoke, boy! I got the purple!"
See #2

6. Birth place: Long Island

An island located east of NYC, with amazing beaches and some of the best people you'll ever meet. You can play the 6 degrees of separation game and you will find a connection to 9 out of the 10 people you'll meet from Long Island. Yes, sometimes we slip into our customary "Lawnguyland" accents, but the fact of the matter is they happen as a result of the people you grow up with, not necessarily where you're from. In fact, most people love our accents, and if you don't, don't listen to us talk when we go into a rant.
You either hate it or you love it, but there sure as hell isn't a place like this anywhere else.
You can't spell L-I-F-E without L.I. <3
Long Island girls do it better.
You either date a rich girl from the North Shore, or a chill girl from the South Shore.
Long Island is love.
Interesting... My native town of Huntington is on the North Shore. Maybe it's a sign???

7. Month of your B-day: May
may is the month where teachers think that they can control a classroom but really nothing gets done and no one cares about their grades anymore. usually this happens because summer break is only 30 days away
"hooray i have math..."
"don't worry bro, its may, nothing gets done anymore" 
Yeah you got that right!!!

8. The last person you talked to: Keith
a sweet ass muther trucker lookin for a good time that is not afraid of anything. origin: 15th century Scotland
That dude is a huge keith. 

9. Nickname: Kimster
Nickname of Formula 1 driver Kimi Raikkonen, commonly used by F1 announcer David Hobbes of the SPEED network. Raikkonen, or the Kimster, currently drives for Scuderia Ferrari Marlboro and is a perennial contender in the F1 World Driver's Championship.
Another magnificent drive here at Spa from the Kimster! 
In other words, stay outta my way on the highway.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

I'm supposedly normal. (warning: another rant...)

Wow, that was fast! I got a call back from the doc's office today that my other tests that were ran last week were "normal." I guess that's good...

I made the decision over the past week that I will fire my current OB in light of  last week's events. However, the tricky part right now is who to go to. As I'm sure most of you know I'm being laid off at the end of June so while I'm pretty sure my insurance is going to change, I don't know what/who it will change to! Argh! I'd sure hate to get to know and love a new doc (assuming that's possible) then have him/her not be on my new insurance. *sigh*

Since last week I have, naturally, been doing some research and have found a lot of stuff to back me up, pretty much a "good for you, Kim, for sticking to your guns" type thing.

EFT, or the "Emotional Freedom Technique," is a form of meditation that basically helps you relax about any issues you might have. While I have only done it a couple of times now, I LOVE IT!

As for the meds she wanted to give me, a "low-dose beta blocker..." Stop right there! The more research I do on this stuff it just makes me want to puke even more! These things mess with your heart rate; they slow it down. Why, oh why, would someone want to use something like that as a first resort? An immediate fix? Look about halfway down that article and you will see (if you haven't already done so)-- they're usually not used first. hmph. What this substance does makes me uncomfortable with ever letting it between my stress-worn, licked and bitten-up lips. Last resort, please. In fact, make medication a last resort. period.

That said, I will be looking for a doc who respects those wishes, and doesn't run to pill-popping at the first sign of a "problem." Oh, yeah, one more thing..s/he can't right away accuse me of "ignoring the problem" when I refuse that medication.

Can  you tell I'm still irked about that?! lol

Anyway, sorry for my whining tonight.. just had to get that off my chest, y'all.

P.S. The running and yoga have made me feel AWESOME lately.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Normal, almost...

I just got off the phone a little while ago with my mom. She's being sprung from the hossy tomorrow! YAY!! The only thing she won't be able to do is stand on her hands. Darn.

What a relief. Tuesday morning I thought I was going to have an anxiety attack and today I am finally beginning to feel human again.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Regarding doctors...

So today happened to be our quarterly blood drive at work and I figured, "ah what the heck," and let the vampires take some juice. Of course anyone who has given blood before knows that they take your vitals first; temp, pulse, B/P...

My b/p reading was 122/74; much-improved over yesterday's 146/80-after-a-148/xx at the doc's office yesterday. Not bad considering where I was and everything going on ;)

I intended to call it in today to inform my doc about my check but time ran away from me today; so it's on the to-do list for tomorrow. Maybe now she'll believe me that's it's STRESS.. seriously if she'd been pushing anti-anxiety meds I might have taken her up ;)  Oy.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Update #2

For those who want to know, my mom came out of surgery a little while ago doing just fine. The only issue was pain control (imagine that!).

She is probably going to be discharged in the next two to three days but may go to rehab afterwards (unanimous agreement here that she's going to throw a fit! My mom is soooooo Ms. Independent Woman!).

Please keep her in your thoughts and prayers.


My mom was being wheeled into surgery right as Keith and I left the hossy. We are pretty sure it's gonna take a couple of hours, but her friend is going to call us when my mom gets out of surgery.

As for the doc appointment, the tests, for the most part were normal! She did say, though that I do have one copy of one of the MTHFR genes (can't remember which one it was now!) but since it's only one it's "not significant." We had results for all but three tests, the others were run today and she'll be able to call me with those results. Not too bad.

What really blows is as a result of the layoff and my mom's surgery my BP reading was high (surprise, surprise!!). Since it was high last time (again, surprise, surprise- wouldn't you be a little agitated too if you'd just gone thru your second m/c in a row, came in from work and knew you had to go back to work?!) she wanted to shove meds down my throat, to which I said a resounding NO. I would like to try natural remedies first; so I'm gonna drop a few pounds (can't hurt either way). She still insisted initially that I shouldn't "ignore" the problem, it "needs to be treated," etc etc but I didn't budge. I don't believe in jumping straight to meds in most cases (now if I was preggo it would be a different story).

What still bothers me about what she said was when she basically said that stress had little influence over BP. Right, then. So people cannot have "white-coat" hypertension, as it's called? What about my ER visit for my first m/c- when my vitals were checked at admission it was in the same "high" range but once we went to leave it was back to the normal-for-me range. Mind you I (needless to say) still had pg hormones in me when the second reading was normal.. so if stress doesn't influence BP that much then where'd the freakin' high reading come from? It sure as h*ll wasn't my weight (which, BTW was skewed somewhat, I guarantee, b/c today AF showed!).

Uuuuugh... Thanks for letting me vent.

As if TWO doozies ain't enough..

This morning I was awoke by a phone call from my mom's roommate. Turns out my mom is having surgery on her shoulder this morning b/c she fell off of a stepstool (she knows she's not supposed to do these b/c of a bad back!) and broke her right shoulder in two places. 

She already had surgery on her left shoulder a couple of years ago for a torn rotator cuff.

I thought 2009 was going to be the BETTER year! What happened? Two months in and already three catastrophes. I think I'm gonna go hide under a rock for the rest of the year; this is ridiculous.

Monday, February 2, 2009

This is it...

...tomorrow's the day!

After a year of waiting for my test results (okay, only a month, but...) I finally get to find out what (if anything) is interfering with my body's desire (or ability, whatever the case may be) to cooperate with me in my quest for babies. If I have to load up on folic acid and/or give myself shots I don't care- just as long as I get a couple of healthy kiddos out of it- BRING IT!!

I guess it's one of the good things (if any) about the layoff issue... layoffs make a very fine distraction from the rest of the world. But I still wouldn't wish ANY of this crap on my worst enemy. It reeeeeeally sucks.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Super Bowl??? Who gives a...

So I hung out today at the computer since Keith had the Super Bowl on for a while (now he has Family Guy) and I... well... just don't want to watch the damn thing! Sorry, but I am in one of those I-could-care-less kind of moods today.

Between the layoffs, miscarriage (all discovered in the same month!), upcoming Angelversary (from the FIRST m/c!) and some other personal issues I won't bore you to death with, I just have too much else going on to worry about the Steelers or the Cardinals. I do, however, wish them both all the best.

I think I shall go join dear Keith in watching Family Guy.
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