Friday, October 10, 2008

The Surreal World

It's been a weird week. Yesterday was Baby Pumpkin's due date, but of course no baby. No pregnancy. Amazingly, though, I made it through the day without getting too weepy or being a total basket case. I've already told Pumpkin I miss him (I have felt that it was a baby boy), beaucoup times. Unfortunately it doesn't bring him back to life, or to my arms. But I know he is here in spirit, watching over me and Keith.

I was thumbing through a newspaper yesterday and saw the date. It stopped me. "October 9, 2008." Right then it felt so surreal to already be in October. Where's the time gone?

I am able to stay distracted, for the most part. Thanks to Myspace and their apps. I'd post the links, but I'm just too lazy tonight (sorry!). I've been kinda lazy, in fact, for the last couple of nights... must be the damn weather- it's creeping (or trying to) back into the mid/upper 80's again. After several days of 100+ degrees, Mama Nature can take her crap back. I now hate summer.

On a much lighter note, we're pretty much back in the saddle again, TTC our first Earth Angel. I hope s/he comes around soon.


Ophelia said...


(I'd feel like an idiot if I said anything. I don't think there's anything I can say that would be all that comforting, other than I'm here for you and thinking of you... Oops... I said something)

Bethany said...

Lots of *hugs*

Oct 9th was also the day I was supposed to be due with my little pumpkin. :( I lost him/her at 7 weeks pregnant as well.

My thoughts are with you!

Hula's Secret Blog said...

I'm so sorry. My EDD was 10/6 for Finn. And like you. I just 'knew' it was a boy (screw what other people say). It was a hard day for me too. My mind was somewhere else.
Good luck in TTC!!!!!!!!!!

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